A Bookish Life I Will Always Cherish

There is something about my childhood that Iprotagonist received by the time I reached my
think you should know. When I was just two"tween" years, I no longer treat others with
years old, I was diagnosed with a mild form ofdevelopmental disabilities the same way again, but
autism known as Asperger's syndrome. I hadin an inspiring and uncondescending way, that is.
trouble talking with others. I had trouble with mySummer reading was no fun for me in both junior
handwriting. And, you guessed it, I had troublehigh and high school. I had to read stories
reading.mandated by my teachers or, better yet, my
But, you'll be happy to know that I did improvehometown's Board of Education committees. I had
upon my reading skills when I was handed myto write increasingly intensive essays that didn't
first children's book in preschool at the tender agepertain to my simplistic, or rather juvenile, style of
of four. I can recall a "pop-up" book collectionwriting. I had to make sure everything was done
about a miniature Golden Retriever known asright before the first school bell rang on the first
Spot. These "pop-up" books made it much easierday of school. The list went on and on.
for me to read the words as well as navigateBut what was deeply ironic about my adolescence
each vibrant page, each of which contained awas that I did, indeed, become a much better
hidden object that led to the clues Spot was sowriter. The books I had to read in school may
eager to find. There was one "pop-up"have been insignificant or less than satisfying, but
pocket-sized book, in particular, in which Spot hadthat, by no means, interfered with my collective,
to find his bone for dinner. I had to "lift" a "goldenself-reflective diaries. I always wrote in my journal
toy chest," "open" a "kitchen closet," all until heabout how I was feeling about my education and
finally found his bone back in the "toy chest!" Thepersonal life, as well as how others perceived me
words in these books were by no meansin the process. I also began to teach myself about
powerful, but they were still a critical tool for myhow to write solid non-fiction essays, for that
all-important cognitive skills in every sense of themeant something even more self-sustaining
developmentally delayed word.altogether.
Perhaps no other children's book collection,But who deserves credit for this improvement?
however, had a more profound impact on myWell, I would have to admit that it was my high
childhood (and in my later years in life) than theschool English teacher who made me much more
Berenstain Bears. They "lived down a sunny dirtenthusiastic about my reading and writing both in
road in Bear Country," but the lessons theyand out of the classroom in the end. She truly
taught me, as well as every other friend andcared about my potential to rise to the top of
relative of mine, were of great, if notmy special education class. She knew I literally had
astronomical, importance to life itself. My all-timea learning disability that was hard to classify or
favorite in this series is "The Berenstain Bearsexplain, let alone admit to others openly. More
Get the Gimmies (1988)." It teaches you how notimportantly, she realized just how difficult it would
to be greedy when you're at the grocery store,be for me to succeed beyond high school. The
the retail store, and even at home. I realized thatrest is history.
I should never ask for more money and/or moreI am now an avid reader and writer. I'm not much
candy and other "addictive" material thingsof a fiction lover, although I do read some
because, as I began to realize at the end of thebestsellers like "The Da Vinci Code (2003)" when I
story, asking for more and more on a continualhave spare time, especially at night. Most of the
basis can be embarrassing and totally impolite. Intime, however, I like to read a diverse range of
other words, I realized it was important for menon-fiction treatises and "novels," even if they are
to be grateful for whatever I have rather thanfor "escapist" pleasure rather than as academic
what I don't have, which continues to be myfood for thought. But even more important than
most moral status quo to this day.my current reading habits are the ways in which I
Although I did love reading children's books inwrite. I'm no longer apprehensive about writing
preschool and elementary school once I got thescholarly essays and book reports, so I'm no
hang of their colorful words and illustrations, I hatelonger writing in my journal on a daily basis.
to admit that my middle school readingAlthough I still struggle with my writing in terms
experiences were less than fulfilling. I had troubleof finding the most appropriate style and syntax,
reading slightly more intricate chapter books likeI would have to admit that improvement is no
Daniel Keyes' "Flowers for Algernon (1966)," S.E.substitute for continuing to explore new avenues
Hinton's "Rumble Fish (1975)" and "The Outsidersand pathways for as long as I remain most
(1967)," "The Lord of the Rings" trilogy, and manyliterately competent.
other stories tailored for young adults; theyBut do I still read a favorite book from my
simply didn't contain any pictures. I also had tochildhood that continues to be in my collective
start doing more detailed book reports not justself-consciousness? You bet. I happened to (and
on the stories themselves, but on the broad,still happen to) memorize almost every single gem
sometimes taboo, themes they emphasized asof a line in Dr. Seuss' "How the Grinch Stole
well. What I did find fulfilling about "Algernon,"Christmas (1957)." I'm sure I'm not the only child
however, was that it was about a man withstill at heart who can do I what do at my Grinchy
severe mental retardation; I began to realize thatbest. So, that said, it's always comforting to know
being retarded was a chronic medical condition andthat even the most trivial of all things wordy can
not merely another indirect, derogatory synonymlive in your heart forever for whatever reason
for acting stupid. Although "Algernon" was stillyou make it to be.
dated in its depiction of the medical treatment the